Two steps forward...

I'm an optimist by nature, but sometimes it's just really, really hard.

I lost a job today. A good job. A job I needed, especially since our family income was just reduced by a third. A third. That's huge. Losing a job was the last thing I could afford, but that's the nature of childcare. The grandmother decided she would watch the little boy...for free. Can't really compete against that, and I obviously wouldn't want to try. This little guy will love being at his grandmother's.

It's just so discouraging. Hard.

Bills loom and honestly, sometimes, I feel like I have no idea how we're going to do everything we need to do.

Two steps forward...the dishwasher is fixed, for significantly less than we would have spent on a new one. I started exercising today, and actually enjoyed it.

Giant steps back.

I have an interview Wednesday morning. If you would, say a prayer for me that I get this job. My family really needs it.

You know the saying 'when a door closes a window opens'. I could really use a huge, shiny, wide-open picture window right about now.