Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are…
Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect Tomorrow.
One day I shall dig my nails into the earth,
or bury my face in my pillow,
or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky
and want, more than all the world, your return.
- Mary Jean Iron

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Bittersweet

So, our first weekend with Rebekah gone.
Friday night we headed to the football game.
The first football game we've been to in four years that we didn't go to with the sole purpose of watching Rebekah march.
I choked up when the band marched out.
I choked up a fair amount this weekend.


We were at the game to watch Julianna cheer.


Jacob spent every spare moment he could find this weekend reading the brand new Thirty-Nine Clues book. I get a lot of pleasure watching my kids love reading.


Saturday Julianna practiced cheerleading...a lot. :)


Jason, Lori, Matt & Lily came over to watch football games.
Lily had her first taste of licorice.


Sunday we took a trip to Creekside. So pretty. Balm for my soul, even though bittersweet memories were everywhere.


We parked at the local cemetery and walked through.
Unfortunately, it was full of memories too.
A good friend of mine from high school's father is buried there.
He was killed on a motorcycle.


My brother Jeff's best friend is also buried there.
I feel like Grady's grave is the closest thing I have to a place to visit Jeff.
My parents chose not to bury Jeff, he was cremated and his ashes scattered over the Grand Canyon, a place he loved. When Grady died, Jeff knew time was precious. He left home shortly thereafter. We never saw him again. He was killed on his motorcycle in January of 1982.


Later, we took a walk through Creekside.



Got ice cream,



and rented a paddle-boat.



It's been truly a bittersweet weekend so far,
but we're getting there, and we'll continue to grow into our new family reality.
Rebekah seems like she's doing well, and I'm very happy for her. Someone very smart summed it up perfectly, it's not that I cry because I'm worried about her, or worried she's somehow not ready. I cry because I really like her, I enjoy her company, and I'm really going to miss having her here everyday.

6 comments:

Mum-me said...

Must be so hard to get used to not having Rebekah around - I can't imagine.

Love all your photos. It was nice to see a white swan - all the swans here are black. Pretty, but definitely not traditional.

Pam said...

I hear ya... It was so fun to hear james & his room mates talking about their life at college. You sure don't get that from phone, text & facebook convos! My dad keeps saying how weird it is to go to football games & not have james out there... It has gotten better the more games we go to, & Zach is getting out some on varsity so that fills the void. james went back last night to school, he said "no offence mom, but it's more fun there" Gee... Okay, no offence taken. :)

Kat said...

I spoke with a woman at church who had just dropped her 18 year old daughter off at college for the first time, and I thought of you and said a little prayer for you. I can imagine how much you must be missing her.
I'm glad you got out and had some fun, though there were some bittersweet moments.

And Miles To Go... said...

Wow, what an action packed time. I enjoyed your photos and seeing pictures of your kids. Happy Autumn!

imbeingheldhostage said...

Um... there's a snake in the water.

I had all sorts of things to say, but there's a snake in the water and Kyleigh just informed me her "room smells like cow poo". I think I have to go now.

I'm sorry about the loss of your brother :-(

Murdock's mama said...

Ah...getting through the firsts is the hardest! Hang in there mama! Now is the time you just have to trust you've taught her everything she needs to survive in the real world. It's her choices from here on off. Looks like you had a wonderful weekend. Your last photo is beautiful. Mmmm! I love me some ColdStone! :) Way to get out and enjoy your long weekend!

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